”Song lyrics about trust – google”

 ”Quotes about Karma – google”

Im not much for kids to be honest with you guys, Im not very fascinated or amazed when it comes to human babies over all. And yes, I was one of the sadistic little shits who would scare them and make them cry just to be able to comfort them again and feel needed.

But when I see this video and I laugh at the reaction something warm also fills up inside of me. I think it might be empathy and love. I just appreciate the vulnerability and the apprehension.

It was my third time this time, every time it is exciting for me as I can never guess what the mother plant will teach me this time.

I also came to realize that Santo Daime creates the best possible environment physically and psychologically for the ceremony. The protectors and the attendees were extremely nice and sweet. I would love to explain the experience but its like trying to explain to a virgin how sex feels. I had some experience in the past with different things but having an out of body experience is still something very new and odd for me. When you drink the first serving in the ceremony, it takes about 5-10 mins for you to close your eyes and open your heart to see another universe.

 The sense of time shatters and disappears, hundred of thousands years of wisdom starts pouring in with an enormous speed, I think this is why a lot of people purge, it really is too much to handle sometimes, then the exterior intelligence..  You can connect with beings, some call them the Machine Elves, search for Terrence Mc Kenna, he was a brilliant man of social science and excelled in so many other fields.  As a result you know the connection between us every living thing in this world and the universe is stronger then you could possible imagine , it is also soothing and calming, you know , you feel that it is ok and you are indeed here for a reason, it is all good and universe has a special plan for you.

DMT – Because a mind is a great thing to lose

I always seem to view the power of manifestation. This is something I should definitely apply more in to my daily life, meditate everyday and manifest the right ideas. You meet with the loved ones from your past, your past lives and your current life and time, you connect with them , you share the love.. For me its always so much love, in the purest form, that shows you that you are made from love and here in this world to love and share, I always feel guilty for not loving enough or being able to show enough. The rest is very personal and  I chose to keep only for myself.

Rebecca Stella and Dani right before their first meeting with Santo Daime, Ayahuasca. You have to wear white and be totally clean, inside and out.  Sex, meat, pills, alcohol and drugs are strictly forbidden before and after drinking the tee for at least 1 week.

 You will experience so many beautiful visions, and this is where you run out of words. 3d over 3d over 3d so many angles, so much depth and colors all at once, nothing that can explain. Maybe looking at the fireworks through a 3d kaleidoscope, but you are in it and your inside it, living it. Meanwhile the Santo Daime songs are playing- Beautiful songs as prayers in portuguese starts to fill out your ears along with the melodies of the acoustic guitar and all of a sudden there is a shift of focus and snap you just come back in to your body.

 You slowly open your eyes and yes, you are there, as a person, you are fine. You want to go back right away but you wait, sings a few songs then the line starts, from the most experienced to new comers attendees line up and the protector serves you what he sees you fit for, then you go back to sit down and your eyes are closing once again.. Is it the awakening dream or the reality that is awakening from your day to day dreams? It is still a mystery to me as to others but i will continue till I find out.

 with love  Marcus

A great documentary about DMT and Ayahuasca with Joe Rogan and others

I don’t know what is worse… Exposing your 2 year old to a meth head, or exposing your 2 year old to a Walmart.. At least she is a happy druggie, and not the rip your face off and steal your wallet kind, plus she’s got some cool dance moves lol!

 Idag fick jag ett paket med fedex. 8 kilo svenskt lösgodis från candypeople. Min kille var inte så jätteglad över det. Men det var jag!

Today I received a package with fedex, 8 KG of swedish delicious candy. My boyfriend weren’t exactly trhilled abut it. But I sure was! 

Marcus såg på mig med dömande ögon men dök sedan ner i godisskålen själv. Fast det fick jag ju självklart inte ta bild på.

Marcus looked at me in despise but surrendered after while and dug in to the bowl of heavenly candy. But he wouldn’t let me tae a pic of that.

On my way over to Thomas Kramers house to pick up all the cool shit we bought yesterday at the auction! The dress is from Zara

Jag tvingade Marcus buda några tusen dollar på velociraporn men någon budade över så vi fick den inte … Tror den hade stått skitfint i vår trädgård! 

Ni vet sådär som killar brukar spotta och fräsa och resa sig 50 % från soffan och se väldigt primitiva ut är de ser en viktig fotbollsmatch på TV?

Exakt så blir jag när jag set klipp som dessa.

Efter Ayahuascan känner jag mig väldigt känslosam och kreativ. Jag känner inte längre något behov vad gällande cigaretter, alkohol eller droger i mitt liv och det är en jävla befrielse. Försökte röka en cigg häromdagen men släckte efter halva och kände mig äcklad. Även om jag har studerat kring ämnet i många år så kommer jag överlämna det till Marcus att berätta allt vad Ayahuasca och DMT innebär då han är mer erfaren än vad jag är. Verkar vara många av er som är nyfikna på medicinen, så han får skriva ett inlägg!

After the Ayahuasca I am very emotional, and also Im feeling very creative and sensitive to certain things. I no longer have the urge to drink alkohol, smoke cigarettes or do drugs which is a relief, and I cant wait to do it again! I will ask Marcus to make a post about DMT and Ayahuasca for you to understand what it really is and does since there seam to be many of you who are curious about the medicine. 

Started working on this pregnant woman last night, what do you think?

 Marcus and I sometimes workout in the backyard. Today he was goofing around, pulling my hoodie over my head, called me Rambo and started singing ”the a final countdown” from the swedish rockband from the eighties – Europe.

I think he might have thought of Rocky and Eye of the tiger, but I dunno..

 Gick ut för att ta en PW i tropikerna imorse. Gick sådär.

Jag försöker fortfarande bearbeta min Ayahuasca ceremoni. Känner att jag behöver göra om det, ganska snart. Nästa möte är om två veckor men då är jag i Sverige så det får bli senare i sommar. Kanske åker till Peru eller Brazilien denna gång och spenderar några dagar i djungeln där man gör det.

Fan, jag drar till Sverige o någon vecka och jag vetifaaaan vad vi ska göra med lille Django. Jag och Mackan hade ju bara tänkt ha honom någon vecka men det lilla kräket är ju så charmigt att vi bara smälter så fort han gör ett pip ifrån sig vilket gör det svårt att göra sig av med honom.

Fuck, Im leaving to Sweden someday next week and I cant deside what to do with little Django. Me and  Marcus was only planning on to keep him for a week or so but the little bastard melts our hearts just by looking at us so we cant seam to get rid of him!